johnnyringo,

You are among friends here. I think we all understand your need to "get things off your chest" and keep your fellow-members informed. It must be very difficult for both you and your wife to be separated during these tough times. I know it would be unbearable for me. By posting, you are showing what a caring empathetic human being you are. My heart goes out to you. The world needs more people who feel such love. Best of luck to you, sir.

Brian

Johnnyringo,

Wishing and praying for a speedy recovery for her and getting back to normal for the two of you.

Nick

Sorry to hear this Mark. Its gotta be very hard to be alone and worry about your wife like that, I hope the therapy goes well and she is home very soon!

Hi JR!

We all greatly appreciate these updates from you. So glad to hear that your wife is in a group home that she enjoys. That's half the battle! You are blessed and fortunate that you are at least able to visit a few times a week, even though each visit is for a very short duration. I have a personal friend who can only visit his mom from the front window where she lives, which has been like this for 6 months now.

You're among friends here. Please keep us informed.

-Mark

Sorry to read this. Know you have support and prayers from this forum.

Thanks Salty, I do love her very much.

I feel a bit guilty, I was taking care of her for a few years until it got to the point where I couldn't do it myself anymore. I can't help but thinking that I should had done more, that maybe if I pushed her to do her exercises more, she wouldn't find herself in this predicament. Although she has a brain tumor, has seizures and has gone through a few operations, I blame myself for not doing a better job of taking care of her.

Please, do not blame yourself. The word "if" is one of the most powerful in the English language. "If" we had all done things differently then perhaps there might have been different outcomes. Maybe not. All of us suffer through this. Nothing can change the outcome. Like everyone, I too feel remorse and guilt for what I might have done to prevent certain situations. PLEASE don't blame yourself for something over which you have no control. In my opinion, you seem to be a very empathetic, kind and loving human being. Hang in. You are supported by friends. At this point, my eyes have begun to tear over and I'm not ashamed to admit it. Thinking of you and your beautiful wife. Like a wise man once said, "All you need is love."

Brian

Hey, I'm not afraid to admit it either, I find myself crying nearly every day since she was taken to the hospital. I try not to think about it, but just living here reminds me of her, I made her lunch and dinner everyday, I'm not much of a cook, but she loved it.

Here's a picture I love, we took this about five years ago, trying to capture John Lennon's Double Fantasy album.

That is the most beautiful photo imaginable!

Brian